Today my best friend decided to take his own life. Words can’t describe the pain me and my friends are going through, none of this seems real. I can’t wrap my head around anything. I just can’t believe he is really gone. I thank god the last thing I said to him was something happy. He was my brother and I can’t process all the emotions I’m feeling.

courtneygash asked:

In not going to say hope you're ok or I know how you feel, you may before too but I wish I had someone to remind me when it happened is time heals all and try your best to keep a smile on your face, as I see it as they're gonna look down at you and be pissed you're wasting your unknown amount of time upset over the loss when the best is to go out and celebrate their life. So if you feel down go make a coffee with 98% cream think of your fav memories as you may cry but atleast there is a smile x

Thank youπŸ’š I needed that. Xo

My heart is breaking, I lost my brother and one of my best friends. I can’t even wrap my head around the fact I won’t be seeing you everyday, making you your nasty sammys at dunks or your coffee that was 98% cream. Or arguing about who had the nicer ass. I know that you will always be watching out for all of us, I love you more then words can ever describe I’ll never go a day without thinking about you I love Patty, alwaysπŸ’œπŸ’‹ rest in the sweetest peaceπŸ’•

My heart is breaking, I lost my brother and one of my best friends. I can’t even wrap my head around the fact I won’t be seeing you everyday, making you your nasty sammys at dunks or your coffee that was 98% cream. Or arguing about who had the nicer ass. I know that you will always be watching out for all of us, I love you more then words can ever describe I’ll never go a day without thinking about you I love Patty, alwaysπŸ’œπŸ’‹ rest in the sweetest peaceπŸ’•